A state of mind thing

I don't like throwing food away. Especially if a) it tastes good b) it was homemade and c) it tastes good :(

It feels almost sacrilegious. I feel like I'm doing something incredibly mischievous.

But I can see that this is a state of mind conditioning process and I appreciate this for the following reasons;
(i) since eating my mini-portions, I don't feel hungry after a meal, at all.

(ii) I do find that I need to ignore my mind when it urges me to finish every last morsel on the plate.

(iii) And every time I eat something, my mind, like clockwork, says "eat it all, it's tasty and you'll feel more satisfied if you do"

I don’t feel ‘satisfied’ by eating everything on my plate – why would I? That’s a false sense of security I’m conditioned to believe. So that begs the question; why did I eat more than I needed to before?

I'm not going to be hard on myself at this stage in the game and try to psychoanalyse my eating habits, as I'm sure I have more challenged ahead. And I do have self- control when it comes to eating unhealthy food.

But one think I want from this challenge is to get to the stage when I am eating more mindfully by habit, and where I’m no longer compelled to eat every last crumb, just because it's sitting on a plate in front of me.